Saturday, February 18, 2006

rejections rejections and delayed gratification

"Demonic" got rejected for the second time. i so like that story and it's making me mad. then there's my lovely experience with soft skull. who dumped my novel manuscript in an envelope (hey that was MY envelope) and mailed it back to me. unread. tod goldberg says they are no longer taking unsols -- question; then why the fuck don't they just say THAT on their website. ooh, it might cause their scenester, indie, neo-left but not really we are as commercial as the next guy image to falter ever so slightly. i HATE THAT. I HATE pretentious assholes of any generation who pretend to be all leftist and egalitarian and who are serious capitalists underneath their alterative t-shirts. FUCK!

so, i wonder, what exactly it is I am trying to do.....

write, share, get the work out there. teach, think about this ruin called the university, make a difference, perform, make art, have joy, love, happiness and a really good chardonnay.

ok.

lillian says i can't expect things to get easier. which seems smart. it's this hippy idealism, and baby-boomer sense of entitlement. this must we why i so dig the gen x-ers. they really know better.

on to more work and more writing, and someday somehow breaking through. again. some more.

1 comment:

NICK said...

that is RIDICULOUS! Hmm... the only publishing company I know somewhat well is McSweeney's via 826LA. It's small but according to them reading "move[s] slowly. On the other hand, every single submission gets read."
You can email or mail in your work...I think your style might mesh well with some of what they have. Anyway, worth a thought!

-nick